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我没有美丽的脸孔
我没有天才般的头脑
我没有模特儿般的身材
我没有白皙的皮肤
我没有温柔的性格
我没有廋而长的腿
更不是什么优秀的人

我很粗鲁
懂我的人知道我是个什么性格的人
初认识我的人会觉得我很凶
跟我很熟了的人会觉得我是个神经质
对啊
我是天蝎女啊
我为此感到光荣
因为 天蝎座的人是个很看重身边所有人的人
天蝎女很心软 总是很心软的原谅了一次有一次
这样的心软 往往就让天蝎女受伤
我们会很天真 特别是对我们看重的人
我们很容易相信别人说的话
所以不要对她们说谎 尤其如果你们是她们很看重的人

不管在友情或爱情
天蝎女很容易看重一个人
而一旦被她们看重了的人
她们会很用心的 很专一的
她们会默默的付出 不管多累
为的只是他们所重视的人开心

我是天蝎女
我就是这么样的一个人
我是一个缺乏安全感的人
我很喜欢被宠
我很喜欢被爱

我只想说
我不完美
我不是很美
可是我很用心
我很珍惜我现在所有的一切
我用心去体会我身边所有的爱
所有友情 亲情 爱情
我很捣蛋 我很笨
有时候会做错事 结果把身边的人气得很气
可是我也有体贴的一面啊
人嘛
总是都只会在最爱的人的面前
露出最小孩子的一面

我想说啊
我很幸福
有一个很爱我的他
一直那么爱我 那么宠我
谢谢你
勾勾手
我们要为我们的未来一起打拼
我们要一起证明给我们的爸妈看
16岁的爱情不叫叛逆
要证明给他们看
我们各自也闯出一个大未来了

还有呢
所有所有好朋友呢
好啦我都很珍惜啦
没有你们
我生活不就很dry ??!! :P
我们各自都要加油嗯
以后谁结婚了都得请我嗯
我肯定做你们的姐妹  ;)
永远的好好好朋友
我爱你们全部 深深  =)

天蝎女
就是如此
我是天蝎女
珍惜你们所有人
我爱你们 :)

Emotional

Why am I being so emotional ?
Why am I putting smiley when instead I'm crying ?
Why am I saying I'm fine when I'm really not ?
Why ?
Why I can't stop thinking this and that ?
Save me from all these emotional please
November ?
It's my month yes
But so ?
I don't dare
Don't dare to expect anything
I'm so afraid



Wanted to know what I want for my birthday ?
What I want for my birthday ?
安全感 .

I'm so so so afraid of stepping out anymore
I'm so scared that I couldn't take the pain
I'm so scared that I couldn't bear the broken heart
I'm so scared that I will not believe in anything anymore

Don't leave me kay ?

星期日

在我的字典里
星期日会是个开心的一天
和家人相处的一天

渐渐的长大了
功课多了
烦恼多了

渐渐的
上大学了
没有得每个星期回家
没有得每个星期日和家人度过

这一个星期日
我不开心 :)
就忽然很想要让自己一个人
静静的不出声
我跟adeline讲我先回去jocelyn的宿舍
就这样
我一个人在宿舍
心情很糟
不懂是不是因为想你还是什么缘故
我不懂
我只知道
眼泪一直在流下
然后很想吃甜品
一个人傻傻的走下去买blackball
在带回宿舍吃

为什么我那么情绪化
什么时候开始变成这样
为什么心情不好
我不懂
我不知道
我不晓得

重复 重复

一直在重复
重复wechat 里面你conversation 里的声音
因为我真的很想你
我不知道为什么
我不开心
我很希望现在
马上有你抱着我
我谁都不要
我只要你
现在

我真的很想你
什么都不能做
只有一直看你的照片 我们的照片
一直重复你的声音

Sunshine

Heart pain each time when you said you're okay, you're fine when I know where you're not .
Yea, I wanna hold you tight, for now and until forever
I feel so wanna protect you from every way
Imagine if I'm the superwoman ;)
I'll help you to beat all the bad people around
Multitask all the works you need to do
Help you massage everyday ;)

I wanna be your sunshine , that could cheer you up and make you happy everyday .
Although it's unhappy to see you unhappy ,
But I'll wanna be the sunshine that shine you in every way
My dear, cheer up
It's hard to go through the hard time,
But do not forget, if it's too much inside, release out, cry out
And stand up again, be the happy you :)

I'm always here for you :')
Cheer up kayy :')

Some happy photos? ;)

14.10.13

Papa birthday

Valentines day <3 p="">

YOLO ;)

压抑

我始终还是过不了自己那一关
我知道我一直拼命的在找借口
也许  只不过是因为 我妒嫉

忽然觉得自己好卑微
好无耻

做不到自己答应自己的事
在心里的那一种不会解释的感觉
找不到别人来倾诉

在这里我找不到一个可以让我在他们面前真真做我自己的人
我做不到自己 的确很痛苦

一直都在跟自己说
这也许就是一个成长的过程
哭过了  就没事了

只有你自己是最爱自己的人
若不坚强  该怎么活 ? :')

半日游

决定用华语来写这一篇
为什么
因为感触实在好多好多

2013年9月27日
那个他  到怡宝比赛篮球啦
理所当然的  我为他加油
更是要他自己照顾自己
而我 其实超想到怡宝去为他打气 支持他
可是拜5拜6都有上课啊
忽然很失望的
因为看见他一直重复的问我会不会去看他比赛
我反复的想了好久好久
再问我的朋友们有没有人要陪我去
可是没人得空
我抓狂到星期六晚上
终于给了自己一个结论
然后就上网查看地图 巴士 的士
那晚很期待很害怕的 睡着了

2013年9月29日
早上6点起床
呵呵 懂我那晚发了什么样的梦吗
梦见我真的找到你
我们两个都超开心的
而就因为这一个梦，我更加确定我要去找你
7点 自己走出去搭rapid
原本是想要搭7.45 的巴士到怡宝
可是就是因为这是第一次啊
我不懂那个去怡宝的总巴士站在哪里
我没下rapid，就这样 我尽然闯到去槟城town
到了唯一我熟悉的地方 komtar
我从rapid下来 希望找到的士
那一刻的我  说真的
眼泪真的在眼里打滚
因为我懂我肯定赶不上7.45的巴士去怡宝
再加上我不懂要去哪里找的士
我真的真的好害怕
可是很幸运的 有一辆的士朝我方向来
我坐上的士
到了总巴士站
也很幸运的
还有一趟8.30的巴士
买了去和回的巴士票
我上巴士了

在巴士上
叹息 害怕 期待 开心
11点
到了怡宝
因为没有巴士到市场
我又搭了的士去他比赛的那间学校
11.30 到了
我没有进去
我站在天桥上面看下去
哈哈 我终于看见你了
那种心情没有人能够理解
因为我终于看到你了
看到你在射球
而令我很心寒的是 发现
你有瘦了
懂不懂我这样一看下去
你超瘦 就好像你6年级的时候一样
之后我就一个人去parade走
因为它就在对面
不去那边我也不懂我该去哪里了
结果等你等到1点这样
我再走到你学校外面
看你的队员比赛
我特地躲避 不要你看见我
我怕你会紧张
而到2点
你们的比赛完了
结果你们全部就直接走出学校上巴士了

其实那个时候我很失望
因为我很想你
我以为我们至少可以能够面对面
结果没有
其实现在我很后悔为什么我没有进学校
为什么我没有先让你知道我会来
可是没有关系吧
你们的巴士走了以后
我就走去terminal 等3点的巴士
6点 到回槟城
结束了这一天的半日游

虽然那一天
我上了巴士后我真的哭了
可是我没有后悔我去怡宝
至少我看到你
至少我可以看见你比赛
至少我可以在旁边默默支持你
还有 很刚巧的我竟然跟你穿同样的衣服
哈哈 心灵相通? :')

笨蛋
我没有怪你
所以我不要你跟我说对不起
而且这是我自己选择下去怡宝找你
我懂也许真的很危险
而且其实我很怕的
可是我不懂那天为什么我会那么大胆
虽然我回到槟城了过后
当我朋友知道我没有进去学校找你全部人都骂我很笨
对  我真的很笨 T.T
可是算了吧
接下来的一个月多两个月我们再一起继续加油
等你回来 在来跟你说很多很多东西
懂你最近很忙很忙
可是你一定要加油一定要撑下去懂吗
不用跟我道歉你没什么能够陪到我
因为我懂你如果真的忙完了你就会来找我
记得 累了 不开心了 很崩溃时 想念了
就来找我
我随时都会在你身边
加油啊
年尾很快就到了 !
我爱你 =)

Miss .

Can I say I really miss you so much ?
Can I say I really want you now so badly ?

Hao xiang bao zhe ni
Hao xiang you ni kao
Hao xiang ni ma shang chu xian zai wo yan qian
Hao xiang hao xiang .

Get over it

No, I just cant get over it
When every time the words hit in my mind
It hurts
I remembered back everything that had happened
I tell myself should be forgiving
So that I don't suffer that much
But how ?
I just cant get over it
I'm so tired of crying
I'm so tired already
I wanted to evade from all these so badly
The first time I felt so wanna back home
The first time I felt so refused to go to college because of them

Yes, I want myself to be happy
Not to bother about that anymore
I tell everyone I'm okay
I smile I laugh I talk like usual as if I'm so fine
But who knows ?
Who knows how I feel inside ?
I'm feeling so suffer
And I got no way to express it out
I got no people to express my feeling to
I dare not find anyone
I'm just too afraid to trouble anyone anymore
I dare not trust anyone anymore
The feeling of being betrayed doesn't feel good at all

I tell myself don't hate anyone
Be kind to everyone
But for this time, I really cant
I don't know why
I really feel so dislike of her everything now
She is so fake
I trusted her like my so good friend
I feel sorry when I don't feel like talking to her after that incident
But I feel even more hurt and stupid
When I get to know what she did behind my back
Ouch .. No one know this pain
I feel like blocking her twitter
I feel so offended when she do all that to me
I feel like I'm so bad that you guys really always talk bad about me
I don't know how to accept all this
I really need time

I miss home
I miss him
I miss my family
I miss my old friends

Mummy, I'm so tired
I really feel to go back home
I don't wanna stay here
Being boycott by them this way, but still need to treat them like nothing happen everyday is so hard for me
I feel so wanna talk to someone so badly
I feel so wanna let go so badly
Tears coming down non stop
I don't know how to stop it
But I'm really so tired

I want you right now
I need you right now
I want you to hug me now
If you saw me crying, don't ask me why
Just hug me
Hug me
Yes, just hug me .. hug me

I'm so afraid to be alone at here
Hug me
I need you now .....
I want you to hug me now ...
I'm so so so afraid ..

感恩

感恩
因为我有你

真的很感恩
谢谢你 爱我的那个你

偷偷在这里告诉你说
我好爱你啊  :D


加油哦
几个月很快就会过去
到时候  我们就可以见面啦啦啦  ^^


Cello , loyo loyo !! :)

Be grateful

Glad that I have you
Glad that I have a bunch of friends
Glad that I have my family :)

Yes, people come and go
God make everything happen with reason
God let us to meet all kind of people with reason
Either the one who should go at last, to let us learn something and grow up
Or the one who will stay with us until the end :)

Glad that I still have so many of them supporting me

Karma . :)
God will be watching over everything we do .

I love everyone
I love you :D

GLAD . PRAY .

不开心 .

不开心
很不开心
我很想很想通通都发泄出来
可是我不懂我该怎样发泄
在哪里发泄
对谁发泄

为什么总是我
为什么 ?
知不知道现在的我真的不懂该怎么面对你们吗
知不知道现在的我变得很讨厌在家里
知不知道现在的我很不喜欢跟你们讨论吗
是, 我很叛逆
是, 我什么都不好
是, 我不是个好孩子

知不知道我真的觉得很压力
我时常都强逼自己一定要考好成绩
因为我真的不想让你们看低我
可是就是不懂为什么我总是都比不上哥哥姐姐
有时候真的很希望会得到别人的称赞
哪怕是很简单的一句  真的就足够了
有时候我会很讨厌自己 为什么身体那么弱
会很讨厌为什么我没能跟普通人一样过健康的生活
每一天都有痛, 真的不是我想要的
而有时候当我真的很不舒服的时候
找谁倾诉 ?
可不可以祈求让我有一个健健康康的身体?

我真的很迷失
真的很想把所有都发泄出来

放心吧
我会自己节俭过生活
自己找工作
自己存钱
自己所要的东西
我会用自己的钱
你刚才的那句话
也许你不会发现到
可是你懂不懂
你真的伤到我了
泪也流下了
哭过了就算
我的生活  我会自己坚强一点过下去
我会证明给你看
我 不是你想象的那样

:')
00.41am
14.8.13 .

Never be the stupid anymore

Don't blame anyone .

I did not blame anyone .

I blame myself .

Why am I so stupid ?

Why did I believe them ?

Believe that they'll change , believe that what they said are true

Believe them that they say we are all family

Believe that they say they'll be there for me

Believe that they say they won't hurt me anymore like last time

Believe that they say they will change

Believe that they say they will be my best friends

Ya , until now only I realize, it's all LIES

I feel that I'm so stupid to believe them

I said nothing but I listen to what they said 

I promise to be back that good with you all

I promise to give all of us one more chance after all

I slowly wanted to forgive you all and forget the things that happened last time

But why you all break the trust again?

I'm fooled by you all again, it's AGAIN

Haha, I feel so stupid 

'sorry cause we last minute only decide one ...'

Do you really freaking think when you reply me ?

Do you really think this message is ok ?

You all never think of me

You all only think of YOU ALL

The YOU ALL without me

You know what ?

I learnt the lesson to be not stupid anymore

Staying at college ALL ALONE for the WHOLE DAY isn't fun

The feeling of lonely, who knows?

The feeling of being fooled, who knows?

The feeling of being forget, who knows?

The feeling of being neglected again, who knows?

You all didn't even ask me whether where am I

You all didn't even care that if I'm okay or not.

Do you all really call this as family ?

You all always ask me, family like that la ..

And now it's time for me to ask back you all ..

FAMILY ? No thanks :')

NO ANYMORE

I'm done

I'm just so tired of all of these

The things that happen then still inside my heart

Every small matter altogether becomes a real big matter

And all of that hurt a lot .

It's really so hurt

I tell myself don't cry , because they don't worth my tears

I did not cry this time

The heart pain , but it's time for me to end all of these

I don't want to believe everything you all said anymore

We are not family .

Thanks for all this 'left alone'

Thanks for all this 'neglected'

Thanks for all this 'hurt'

Thanks for this everything

You guys do really hurt me a lot .

And I will never forget today, 17.7.13

I'm done .

Goodbye .

:)

Always tell myself, to be matured
Always tell myself to stay strong no matter what happen
But sometimes, when the truth is just right in front of you ,
Tell me, how am I going to tell myself it's alright ?
Yea, I smile like I'm okay
I laugh like I'm happy
I say it's okay like I'm really okay
But who knows what's the heartache ?
I told myself don't be stubborn
Yea, I'm doing my very best to not being stubborn
I told myself, sometimes it's better to stay silent
But why people still don't like me?
Ya, I know I'm not pretty, not that attractive
But is it the look really mind so much?
I don't want to compare
But you know, when you always get isolated,
That's when you feel so alone and you feel so blank
And that's when you need someone there beside you
Friend is just a term
You can only know who's your true friend when you're at your down phase

Look through everything
Think through everything
See through everything
And I understand a lot
I remember all the promises you made to me :)
Yea, I will remember all these through the days

Women's sixth sense is always that accurate
I wouldn't wanted to judge anything about it yet
But my dear, I just wanted to tell you one more thing, that I really love you
That I hope you'll always remember this
That no matter what happen, I'll always support you through
No matter what decision you made, as long as it's what that can make you happy,
I'll support .
Lee Kah Wei, I want you forever .
I hope you do see this post
I wait for you in this coming August .
I love you .

不喜欢

为什么那么多不开心
为什么那么多担心

我不懂那是什么感觉
不想说 也不敢说

很想很想找个人来倾诉
很想要有个人借我肩膀
很想要痛快的哭一场
很想要一直一直抱着你不放

我不开心
我跟不上学业
跟他们全部人参不进
不喜欢这种一直一个人的生活


我不喜欢
不喜欢那个感觉
可不可以 告诉我多一次
告诉我
你永远不会离开

思绪

有时候真不明白 为什么总都控制不了自己的情绪
有时候真的很想心放宽阔点 可是为什么总都做不到 ?
其实我会很介意 很介意别人对我的看法
很害怕别人会不喜欢我 然后就会一直胡思乱想
当别人问道你在读什么科系
我就会有种莫名的害怕要告诉他们
我其实真的也很介意 当别人说我去读这个科系很浪费
我不懂为什么我会有这种想法 可是我就是想不开

总是都不会让爸妈知道我其实不喜欢住在这里
每当一到星期日 我就一定会哭
因为我必须得回来这里
不  我不是不喜欢我现在在读的这一切
不是不喜欢学校
我只是不喜欢一个人在这里和表哥住在一起
每天6点回家后什么都不能做
在家里要做些什么有时候也会很不方便
但你们真的会了解吗
知不知道我真的很怕孤独的感觉
知不知道我差不多每一晚都哭着入睡
知不知道孤单的感受有多可怕
你们到底知不知道 ...

这一晚
思念忽然浮现在脑海
我忽然很想念所有人
我好想念他
我好想念哥哥姐姐
我好想念爸爸妈妈
我好想念所有朋友
真的很想很想

我很想大大声的痛哭一次
我很想很痛快的发泄一次
可以吗


原以为我可以很坚强
原以为我可以勇闯所有难关
但我刚才发现
我原来 只不过  那么 脆弱

怎 么 坚 强
教 我 好 吗 ? ....

how good ..

It just make me feel so stress .. No other way to express it out , I feel so tense . More and more each day .. How good if im now given an empty land That i can scream out loud That i can cry out so loudly That i can give myself a break That i can freeze out the time . How good . Song of the night - the woman I love , jason mraz .

You're my everything :)

Hey, hell yes It's April ! Why do time must pass this fast ? Kdu or inti ? :( I dont want to start class so fast I'm just so not ready about it yet .. And yes, I'm just so afraid And I'm just so miss him Dear, the challenge is going to start so soon And dear, let's go through this everything together Let's await the 1000 together, and enjoy more of the 1000 6A's is actually not a very good result though But baby, I'm just too proud that you scored so well Don't care whether are you studying form 6 5 and a half year will pass Very fast. I know that the God will blessed two of us together facing every adversity I love you, always. :)

Date .

A simple date , will be much more than enough to me :)

A date with him :)

No destination , as long as it's with him .

 ' Don't say , just show . '

This is what I wanted to tell you 

You may or may not understand what I'm saying

If you not understand , think ba :)

Stay happy no matter what 

I'm here always :)

I love you , happy 705 my dear :)