Get over it

No, I just cant get over it
When every time the words hit in my mind
It hurts
I remembered back everything that had happened
I tell myself should be forgiving
So that I don't suffer that much
But how ?
I just cant get over it
I'm so tired of crying
I'm so tired already
I wanted to evade from all these so badly
The first time I felt so wanna back home
The first time I felt so refused to go to college because of them

Yes, I want myself to be happy
Not to bother about that anymore
I tell everyone I'm okay
I smile I laugh I talk like usual as if I'm so fine
But who knows ?
Who knows how I feel inside ?
I'm feeling so suffer
And I got no way to express it out
I got no people to express my feeling to
I dare not find anyone
I'm just too afraid to trouble anyone anymore
I dare not trust anyone anymore
The feeling of being betrayed doesn't feel good at all

I tell myself don't hate anyone
Be kind to everyone
But for this time, I really cant
I don't know why
I really feel so dislike of her everything now
She is so fake
I trusted her like my so good friend
I feel sorry when I don't feel like talking to her after that incident
But I feel even more hurt and stupid
When I get to know what she did behind my back
Ouch .. No one know this pain
I feel like blocking her twitter
I feel so offended when she do all that to me
I feel like I'm so bad that you guys really always talk bad about me
I don't know how to accept all this
I really need time

I miss home
I miss him
I miss my family
I miss my old friends

Mummy, I'm so tired
I really feel to go back home
I don't wanna stay here
Being boycott by them this way, but still need to treat them like nothing happen everyday is so hard for me
I feel so wanna talk to someone so badly
I feel so wanna let go so badly
Tears coming down non stop
I don't know how to stop it
But I'm really so tired

I want you right now
I need you right now
I want you to hug me now
If you saw me crying, don't ask me why
Just hug me
Hug me
Yes, just hug me .. hug me

I'm so afraid to be alone at here
Hug me
I need you now .....
I want you to hug me now ...
I'm so so so afraid ..