Never be the stupid anymore

Don't blame anyone .

I did not blame anyone .

I blame myself .

Why am I so stupid ?

Why did I believe them ?

Believe that they'll change , believe that what they said are true

Believe them that they say we are all family

Believe that they say they'll be there for me

Believe that they say they won't hurt me anymore like last time

Believe that they say they will change

Believe that they say they will be my best friends

Ya , until now only I realize, it's all LIES

I feel that I'm so stupid to believe them

I said nothing but I listen to what they said 

I promise to be back that good with you all

I promise to give all of us one more chance after all

I slowly wanted to forgive you all and forget the things that happened last time

But why you all break the trust again?

I'm fooled by you all again, it's AGAIN

Haha, I feel so stupid 

'sorry cause we last minute only decide one ...'

Do you really freaking think when you reply me ?

Do you really think this message is ok ?

You all never think of me

You all only think of YOU ALL

The YOU ALL without me

You know what ?

I learnt the lesson to be not stupid anymore

Staying at college ALL ALONE for the WHOLE DAY isn't fun

The feeling of lonely, who knows?

The feeling of being fooled, who knows?

The feeling of being forget, who knows?

The feeling of being neglected again, who knows?

You all didn't even ask me whether where am I

You all didn't even care that if I'm okay or not.

Do you all really call this as family ?

You all always ask me, family like that la ..

And now it's time for me to ask back you all ..

FAMILY ? No thanks :')

NO ANYMORE

I'm done

I'm just so tired of all of these

The things that happen then still inside my heart

Every small matter altogether becomes a real big matter

And all of that hurt a lot .

It's really so hurt

I tell myself don't cry , because they don't worth my tears

I did not cry this time

The heart pain , but it's time for me to end all of these

I don't want to believe everything you all said anymore

We are not family .

Thanks for all this 'left alone'

Thanks for all this 'neglected'

Thanks for all this 'hurt'

Thanks for this everything

You guys do really hurt me a lot .

And I will never forget today, 17.7.13

I'm done .

Goodbye .

:)

Always tell myself, to be matured
Always tell myself to stay strong no matter what happen
But sometimes, when the truth is just right in front of you ,
Tell me, how am I going to tell myself it's alright ?
Yea, I smile like I'm okay
I laugh like I'm happy
I say it's okay like I'm really okay
But who knows what's the heartache ?
I told myself don't be stubborn
Yea, I'm doing my very best to not being stubborn
I told myself, sometimes it's better to stay silent
But why people still don't like me?
Ya, I know I'm not pretty, not that attractive
But is it the look really mind so much?
I don't want to compare
But you know, when you always get isolated,
That's when you feel so alone and you feel so blank
And that's when you need someone there beside you
Friend is just a term
You can only know who's your true friend when you're at your down phase

Look through everything
Think through everything
See through everything
And I understand a lot
I remember all the promises you made to me :)
Yea, I will remember all these through the days

Women's sixth sense is always that accurate
I wouldn't wanted to judge anything about it yet
But my dear, I just wanted to tell you one more thing, that I really love you
That I hope you'll always remember this
That no matter what happen, I'll always support you through
No matter what decision you made, as long as it's what that can make you happy,
I'll support .
Lee Kah Wei, I want you forever .
I hope you do see this post
I wait for you in this coming August .
I love you .

不喜欢

为什么那么多不开心
为什么那么多担心

我不懂那是什么感觉
不想说 也不敢说

很想很想找个人来倾诉
很想要有个人借我肩膀
很想要痛快的哭一场
很想要一直一直抱着你不放

我不开心
我跟不上学业
跟他们全部人参不进
不喜欢这种一直一个人的生活


我不喜欢
不喜欢那个感觉
可不可以 告诉我多一次
告诉我
你永远不会离开

思绪

有时候真不明白 为什么总都控制不了自己的情绪
有时候真的很想心放宽阔点 可是为什么总都做不到 ?
其实我会很介意 很介意别人对我的看法
很害怕别人会不喜欢我 然后就会一直胡思乱想
当别人问道你在读什么科系
我就会有种莫名的害怕要告诉他们
我其实真的也很介意 当别人说我去读这个科系很浪费
我不懂为什么我会有这种想法 可是我就是想不开

总是都不会让爸妈知道我其实不喜欢住在这里
每当一到星期日 我就一定会哭
因为我必须得回来这里
不  我不是不喜欢我现在在读的这一切
不是不喜欢学校
我只是不喜欢一个人在这里和表哥住在一起
每天6点回家后什么都不能做
在家里要做些什么有时候也会很不方便
但你们真的会了解吗
知不知道我真的很怕孤独的感觉
知不知道我差不多每一晚都哭着入睡
知不知道孤单的感受有多可怕
你们到底知不知道 ...

这一晚
思念忽然浮现在脑海
我忽然很想念所有人
我好想念他
我好想念哥哥姐姐
我好想念爸爸妈妈
我好想念所有朋友
真的很想很想

我很想大大声的痛哭一次
我很想很痛快的发泄一次
可以吗


原以为我可以很坚强
原以为我可以勇闯所有难关
但我刚才发现
我原来 只不过  那么 脆弱

怎 么 坚 强
教 我 好 吗 ? ....

how good ..

It just make me feel so stress .. No other way to express it out , I feel so tense . More and more each day .. How good if im now given an empty land That i can scream out loud That i can cry out so loudly That i can give myself a break That i can freeze out the time . How good . Song of the night - the woman I love , jason mraz .

You're my everything :)

Hey, hell yes It's April ! Why do time must pass this fast ? Kdu or inti ? :( I dont want to start class so fast I'm just so not ready about it yet .. And yes, I'm just so afraid And I'm just so miss him Dear, the challenge is going to start so soon And dear, let's go through this everything together Let's await the 1000 together, and enjoy more of the 1000 6A's is actually not a very good result though But baby, I'm just too proud that you scored so well Don't care whether are you studying form 6 5 and a half year will pass Very fast. I know that the God will blessed two of us together facing every adversity I love you, always. :)

Date .

A simple date , will be much more than enough to me :)

A date with him :)

No destination , as long as it's with him .

 ' Don't say , just show . '

This is what I wanted to tell you 

You may or may not understand what I'm saying

If you not understand , think ba :)

Stay happy no matter what 

I'm here always :)

I love you , happy 705 my dear :)