我不好
我真的不好
不再是没关系
因为我真的不好

有太多太多在心里
我感觉我快要弊死了
我真的需要发泄
我真的需要一个人给我倾诉

这次
我真的需要
因为我真的不好 .

放空

回过头 拥抱犯过的错

才让我懂 像风筝 需要天空 

同时 也要拴着线的手 

看到了这一句

我好像忽然领悟了

领悟了很多

发现我不该埋怨了

发现我不该依赖了

发现我该要努力了

发现我该爱自己了

有时候 

是我累了

就当是我自己闹别扭吧

我好想要明示

我好想要表达

完完全全 表达我的所有感受

可是我的理智告诉我

我不能这么做

算了吧 反正我习惯了

总是都是败给了自己的太心软

不想再看见

不想再听见

不想再心痛

不想再犯贱

带我走 到遥远的地方

我好想要放空

我真的没有那么坚强

真的不要那么相信我的所有没关系

纠结

Sem 4 读完了
在要进入 sem 5 的 这个时候
该纠结的真的好多

Internship 该到哪里去
Degree 是不是该继续读
要不要到外国去
要走 academic 路线 还是自己开店

真的好乱啊
假期最后一个星期了
代表成绩要出了
忽然真的很怕
因为我懂这次我真的没有放下真心的在读
就求cgpa不要跌
下个sem我真的会努力了 我答应 :(

是不是习惯了 就会这样
为什么发现 身边的人 全都一样
是不是因为一直以来都是我在忍
所以你们都把所有当成理所当然 ?
谁不想要简简单单
不是不知道
看穿了不一定要说穿
说穿了对谁都没有利益不是吗

请把我当普通人看待好吗
普通人想要的即是我要的

我不想要约束任何人
可是我不想让不想约束而失去自己最想要的东西
这是我的恐惧 是我的纠结
有谁看懂了 ?

好想有人了解自己
可是又不想被别人看穿内心
矛盾 执着

晚上闭上眼睛后流下的眼泪
是因为想起了某些人
想起了那些想忘也忘不了的事

没关系说多了多么忧伤

坚强点吧
我不会让自己倒下
看清了 就看轻了



他不懂 - 张杰 #nowplaying .

、

当你已经不懂该怎么面对你身边的那些好朋友的时候
你应该怎么办
到底什么是朋友

这次我真的不懂我该找谁倾诉了
我想要坚强 可是当眼泪划下的那一刻
我知道 我真的坚强不了

Holssss

First week was simple,
Meetup with that two crazy girls
Nice talk though
Second week start off perfectly
My first time to Seremban
All by myself, about 7 hours journey on the bus :O
Was dizzy and bored in the bus
Until I met that skinny you again in the bus station :)
First time travel with you, I mean it is the first time, both of us only
It is a nice trip , nice doraemon, nice memories

Sunday , a movie date , NFS .
Awesome movie with your accompaniment :)
It had been so long since our last movie
Monday to Thursday ,
Just simple assignment day
Filled with laughter, joy, food, maybe ? Haha
Friday , the original plan to penang, but end up cancel
We both have our haircut ,
And then just chilling in the house
Decided to go for a swim , too many people
Change to waterfall , too many people
So yeah we went to have a walk in lake garden
Again, so long since our last walk together huh ? :P
And then late night 11 something, manage to drive you out for supper
And see the happy hyper you
Saturday , the last day before you head back to Seremban
Went to teacher's house together
And then for lunch , and I guess that's the part we will not forget ?
Sorry for acting naive , I guess we both grown up a little through there ?
Thank god everything went smooth and we went for movie again after that
In the dark -_- It was your idea , well, nice though
Then went to your house and have dinner and accompany you for a while
Then meetup with some friends at snooker area
Still those crazy kids , those super bff :)
And then we went to round the town , before you send me home
I hugged you so tight right before I get down the car , again, the goodbye moment, which I hate the most
And then Sunday, the day you went back

I jot down every of this single details of us
I cherish every moment of this
I love every moment when I'm with you , no matter where we are, what we're doing
I can still remember the laugh on your face when you saw the bag that I gave you
I'm glad that you love it :)
Through all the hardship, as the time goes by
We had grown up more and more
You , my naughty boy
Please do take care of yourself and get more rest and eat more okay
Hope to see you at least gain a little bit more weight
You're getting more and more skinny and that's what that made me so heartache

Remember , no matter what happen
I'm always there for you , supporting you
Jia you for your one more month class and your exam that comes after that
And then it will be your holiday again
And we can meet again then
2 months from now , jia you :)
Wo ai ni yo naughty boy xoxo

 Under the magic umbrella :D

 Golden doraemon !

 Otw back, with you by my side ;)

 Serious worrr o.O

 Big eye vs. small eye :P

 认真的男人好帅噢 哈哈

FallingInLove Couple Shirt ;)

Ehehe Finished this holidayss ,

Looking forward to the next one with you

Gambatehhhh ! ;)

Syinn ;)

-

Naughty boy
I miss you
1 more week  ....

Syinn ;)